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| hmmm.... |
| 07.29.04 (7:44 pm) [edit] |
yesterday...meet chialer,percilia,pei wen early 4 lunch...then i was late...so sori...then treat them drink to
apologize...hmm...went to canteen 1 to eat the jap food...then saw felix n jefferson..they are classmates...haha...world so small..hmm...then after tat went 4 FS lesson...xianz....boring....hmm...then we faster finish my lesson then go orchard wif pei wen,percilia,chialer.we went to HMV first then i bought aot of pooh stuffs..coz veri cute..then saw a few watches tat i reali like but no money buy...haf to save 1st ba...
then eat old chang kee....we walk to the tangs....shop around n did not buy anything....hmm...then we headed to the next stop which is far east....i bought 2 rings..coz one of my ring broke when i play basketball...xianz...then we went to eat the waffle ice-cream at gelare....it was veri nice...haha...going fat again..
then we take bus to ps....pass by gio but neber c ah boi..dunno he hide at where...haha..then percilia bought a shoe at DMK....she was fast..pick on the one she like,try the size n pay immediately...haha...then we took bus home...chialer take another bus...then percilia n pei wen accompany mi to lot 1 to buy some stuffs then headed home....it is a nice day...but i spent quite alot....hmm...tml haf to chiong 4 study le...haha....cya peeps.. :roll:
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| updates..... |
| 07.27.04 (10:18 pm) [edit] |
26/7
yoz...sori peeps so long neber blog coz veri busy...haha...hmmm...today went to jas hse after sch..actually wan to practise the dance steps but i neber join in...then meet ah boi n jas at atrium then stay awhile then went to orchard mac to meet wei ming... boi n mi keep on making fun of wei ming n jas..till they all bth...veri shy..haha...hmmm..then went to jas hse by cab...i juz do nthing then wei ming n jas learning dance steps while ah boi do his amaths hw...haha...i teach him...at least i still remember how to do....after tat we went to eat dinner....then went home....
27/7
hmm....today...IS lesson xianz,,,topic reali sux...not nice to talk de..then went 4 the SW lesson..raining again...i reali xianz alot...do our SW at sch hall...do alot of running all tis..reali shag..then went to canteen 1 to find jas,meixing...i meet ah boi coz haf to pass him thing...after tat waited 4 a long time then findly went to tiong bahru..hmm...eat steamboat lor...then saw may then hug her..reali miz the days we r working together...i eat alot..n especially the durian ozzee...hmm....reali eat alot...then after tat went to D SHINE to c the james...we had a chat then he keep on distubing meixing...after a chat he once join giodano..noe nora n alex...wat a small world sia...then went home coz too tired le... :o
hmmm...update tonite...
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| suay day... |
| 07.24.04 (9:44 am) [edit] |
hmm...so suay today..coz today actually work 11 to 8 but i go 4 afternoon shift..blur mi..luckily jolin neber scold mi..juz say i veri blur nia...hmm...then after tat start my work...today being cashier..i shortage of 10 bucks...suay anot..hai...broke liao still so suay...hiya...mayb too busy so haf to b fast tat y...sob sob.. :cry: after tat stay bk awhile 4 the dancing thing..actually wan to stay later but they say felix n boi not coming down..so neber wait 4 them went home wif jason..on the bus,saw bing song...so so long neber c him..still the same so blur look...had a chat then he went off at his stop...
hmm...after tat went home n eat my supper..so sad today..shortage of money..1st time lor n so much sia 10 bucks lor...reali suay...k gtg le tml going to aes carnival..going meet up wif my friends...reali miz them so so much... :wink:
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| sick again... |
| 07.22.04 (6:39 am) [edit] |
yoz....today wake up around 10 plus...not enough slp...haha...then went to lot one meet chialer n amelia..we went to buy the cake 4 janis...after tat went to long john silver n eat...after tat pei wen join us coz she overslp...then we went to sch by 67..saw kok ann on the way...then we change bus at the stop i usually change then we board 61 n we saw a couple..which is percilia n edric..haha...edric was so shy when we saw them...then we kinda laugh at them..hehe..
after tat went to find kong to put the cake...had our lesson s usually..xianz...today test make a stupid mistake..no more full marks le..so sad..nvm..do well next time ba...then after his lesson we went up to the office n get our cake...then we went down at the square n celebrate there..janis was suprised...then kong n fabian join us in the celebration..then we ate the cake...haha...sori peeps i dunno how to cut cake but u all ask mi do coz i m the class rap..hai...so some ppl eat big piece then some eat small piece..then dunno y i kana flu..reali dunno y..haha..
after tat chialer,percilia n i went to the the caltex to meet chialer's friend then settle her problems then went to westmall...we went to kfc n eat...after tat went home le...haha...k la...not feeling well le..coz bad flu... :oops:
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| tired day... |
| 07.21.04 (10:01 am) [edit] |
20/7
hmm...today went to sch 4 IS...so xianz n tired...haf to tok on a topic again..hai...did not reali tok much 4 my topic coz too scare le..4get wat i wan to say..after tat went 4 SW which is bball...hmm...shag..the coach is crazy..ask us do dribbling on turning n shooting..but tis is the most slack training liao..wat can i ask 4 more...hmm...veri hot coz the sun is burning red..sweat alot lor..hope can lose some of my weight...then after tat go home wif chialer coz peiwen went to meet his bf at westmall...go home slp coz too tired le...haha...
21/7
hmm...today went 4 lesson at 2 coz nana lesson is cancel...then listen to tat kong lesson wow so super xianz...did not reali listen...then after tat was lilian lesson...haf a game but my grp slack lor..haha...then after tat went to meet ah boi n felix to go shop..haha..they sent mi to the shop...like i da xiao jie..got 2 body guards to send mi to work..haha...hmm.... today do stock take so kind of busy..but i not busy instead keeping on finding thing to do..coz no customer de...
after off work went to cck 302 there to eat wif wendy n jason...coz hungry...we ate finish then both of them walk mi to my doorstep then they went home..haha...on our way home wendy n jason keep on saying mi..hai..ke lian...but reali enjoy their company...anyway gtg le...blog soon... :wink:
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| tired day... |
| 07.19.04 (8:46 am) [edit] |
hmm...today wake up at six plus coz meeting chialer at 8 in sch...coz haven finish the psp hw...then went sch to do.. tat winson do finish then ask him save n sent mi..haha...lazy...hmm.... then went 4 lesson...sharon goh...dun reali like her sia...so fierce..dunno feel sleepy in her lesson...after her lesson went to kong lesson on fs..he was late due to some family problem..hmmm..then got bk my fs in class test 1..haha...got A plus..hiya i noe alot of ppl dun bleaf especially tat qian hui...haha..always say i slack n slp in class but i got results de leh..haha...dun look mi down worz..haha...
hmm...after all the lesson went home then saw qian hui..same bus wif her lor...then we meet up at the shell..i took the same bus wif her...then she alight at westmall stop...hmm...after tat i went home took a bath n eat my dinner then went to meet ah boi to mac to study..c i so guai...haha....we do our hw till 10 plus...hmm... ah boi buy mi a pooh keychain s a prize 4 my test...actually i was joking wif him but he take it serious...reali thanxz..i reali like it veri much...after tat he sent mi home n he took cab home...hmm....think tat all 4 today le ba...nitez... :wink:
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| ke lian day.... |
| 07.18.04 (7:16 am) [edit] |
hmm...yesterday was a bad day 4 mi coz kana suan by the gio ppl y??? coz my eyes got infection then turn veri red s if i m wearing red contacts lens or the bad devil wif the red eyes...mi myelf was quite scared actually...the wen guang say i watch too much "A''show..tat is extremly ''A'' till my eyes bcome like tat..then siti say i peep guys..hai...then max also join wenguang keep on saying i watch too much liao...bth...then i juz keep quiet n say YA LA..watch too much le lor...my gio mummy which is jolin was veri concern n even ask mi pain anot...hai...actually is not pain at all..juz feel abit itchy lor...coz the dust ba...then keep on rubbing when i reali bth the itchy...jasmine keep on asking m i ok got problem muz tel her coz she thought i cry till my eyes till like tat joanna also say if need shoulder she will let mi de.haha.bth they all still can joke like tat.angel,ijah,catherine,ah boi,alex they all also show concern..thanx..i ok now even though still abit reddish but better then yesterday tat bloodly eyes...
i off work around ten coz jolin mama c mi like veri xin ku ask mi go rest lor...then i wait 4 them to off work coz they staying bk to dance the hip hop 4 the coming gio dinner...but hope we can get in n dance on the dinner tat day...hmm...they dance the HONEY song..nice song...well ah boi kana transfer to ps from next week...xianz...no more fun from him sia...
after tat we went home by cab coz no bus n train.i share wif wen guang n ah boi...hmm... did not pay 4 the fare coz dun even noe how much...haha....
today...wat did i do..wake up n still c my eyes red...cal gio n ask 4 mc..coz haf to c doc if not alot of ppl will worry 4 mi...so in order to dun let ppl wori so haf to c doc...reali dun like c doc..xianz...y not doc come n c mi neh???then the doc say i kana virus n some dust..give mi a eye drop which haf to apply every 2 hrs..xianz...n he give mi 2 days off...ask mi to let the eyes rest more...so i slp till 6 plus today..haha..pig rite??? but tat wat i m n i m like tat de...so those ppl muz bare wif mi lor..
hmm...nthing to do coz lazy to do hw...then slack all day..watch the charity show..they reali veri ke lian..suddenly veri scared of giving birth when i get married..hai... kk haf to stop here need to give my eyes some rest le...cya peeps...pls flood my shoutbox whu ever c my blog..muz leave a message thanx peeps.. :lol:
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| shopping day... |
| 07.16.04 (8:41 am) [edit] |
hmm...today went sch...almost late bcoz of tat rain...then saw bwei,zhiyong n kok ann....then kok ann n mi went to class together..he help mi take my laptop coz he scare i cant balanced myself....so nice of him..
go psp1 lesson...xianz...dunno how to draw the hse...xianz...quite difficult...hmm....then after lesson then went to chialer hse then to put our laptop...we went to bugis...then a guy follow us when we alighted then he ask chialer r we singaporeans anot...we will like so scare dunno wat to do...then he went off...so heng...
today did not buy anything coz not nice...then i onli buy a pair of ear rings...then we went to take neo prints...take alot of times...haha...then we go to chialer hse again...then saw her mum,she is young n her sis is cute n her maid is nice...then we had a chat..then wat we tok reali happen lor...haha...anyway veri tired le...zzz....blog again soon.. :o
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| shag day... |
| 07.15.04 (8:34 am) [edit] |
hmm.... today wake up at 11.15 coz lesson start at 1pm..haha till 3 pm nia..haha...then went to meet the my classmates..then go 4 tat kong lesson which is FS so xianz...but luckily today he not like monk keep on nagging till i fall asleep..i listen to class n after tat we had a test on wat is taught...ok la..not reali tat difficult 4 tat qns but dunno my ans correct..muz wait till next week then noe..xianz...
after his lesson went to eat at canteen 2..chicken chop again..saw sinyee after we eat finish then i went over to chat wif her awhile...then i headed to the co-op n buy some chocolates n sweet...actually wan buy ice-cream de but scare fat sia...hmm..then went to the blazzar at the atrium...percilia,chialer n mi bought a hp chain...which haf to collect tml..then i saw alot of pooh stuffs but no money buy..so kelian..c my fav but cant buy..hai..
after tat i headed to work..while waiting 4 the bus..saw ah boi then we went to work together..he still think tat i dunno he came bk to taka to work...i smart one hor ah boi...i noe u will read my blog de..haha...hmm...after work went home...hmm..quite tired today...think i everyday also tired de ba..hmm... then on the bus i saw shun foong...those whu noe mi well will also noe him..but those dunno..4 ur information is juz my ex pri sch friend..he still same size..so tall n got build but abit fat..haha...we chatted awhile then i also dunno wat to tok abt..mayb shy ba..haha...juz no topic to tok on..but veri qiao to c him...coz at ngee ann onli saw him once...well,think tat all 4 today..tml is my shopping day..haha...going bugis n shop like crazy..hope got the money to shop lor... :lol:
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| updates abt mi.... |
| 07.13.04 (8:47 pm) [edit] |
yoz peeps,sori keep u all waiting 4 my update stuffs...tis few days quite busy coz haf to study n work n rest...dun haf enough time everyday 4 mi to update...so sori..haha..
well,my classmates rock...they r cool n out-going....always haf alot of funs n laughters in class...but our class reai slackers...all neber do hw..if got also last min then do..hai...mi slp in class during my lessons le...haha..bad rite???some more class rap..haha..but i try to prevent all tis thing...muz study n achieve gd results...haha..
hmm...my IS classmates also quite nice....the guys quite gentleman ba..haha...s 4 my SW module,the teacher is mo gui jiao lian....he reali mad..make us run up the big stairs then do all stupid position..reali shag like hell...yesterday we dribble using wif right hand,then left hand n both hands...n is dribble 4 3 courts n some more is raining likle shit...run in the rain..then now i caught cold again...n my cough haven ok yet..xianz...hai...xianz...shag like hell in the SW module...but there is one particular guy whu is the same IS n SW module noe my name..i was shocked..coz i dun even noe his name...quite weird n we chat awhile coz we were waiting 4 the other batch to draw finish their art piece... from the chat think he quite nice ba...think will get to noe them soon enough...
hmm... s 4 my workplace the gios...i was told to take part in a hp hop dance 4 the gio dinnner... then tat day on 10/7 went to a ktv pub wif xiao jun,cheryl,joanne,jason,j olin n karin to sing n drink...did not reali drink much coz help tat karin drink...now i like to disturb karin dunno y also..haha...hmm.... alot of new staffs n ah boi join back again...well,think tat all in gio 4 mi..i juz feel tired n need to rest...tml still haf to work sia...xianz..
hmm...think update again coz now rushing to a class..in the meanwhile pls try to flood my shoutbox... :wink:
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| nic n yuanjin celebration day.... |
| 07.03.04 (8:08 am) [edit] |
hm....today wake up at eleven... take bus wif qian hui to taka..on the way saw wendy then sit wif her n chat...kind of neglect qian hui...after reach le..a ger went toward mi ask mi sms wendy coz got a guy behind her keep on take her pics...then cal wendy n tel her..went to taka to do some personal thing then went back to gio to c the friends coz veri long neber c them le...off one week ma...reach gio...chat wif alex they all n noe there are 2 newcomers...they ask mi comb my nerd hair coz look nicer n cuter...but i feel it make mi look like a tomato...
after tat went to far east to eat the chicken rice n shop a shoe,a bag n pooh stuff...hmm... after tat we slack from far east to ps..then take 77 to bukit batok to meet liyu they all...then qian hui went home..i was early so xianz...then tiacpin,terrence n cheryl came after tat...after tat liyu,yuanjin,kok guan,ronald,nicholas,eddi e n xuan feng n rebecca...we walk to blk 217 to eat...we settle down n order our food le then meixing n kor then join in...we take pics..kor went off after eating...hmm... after tat we take cab to century...
centuary was full n i saw peiling..haha been so so long neber c her le..saw eugene..cant recongise him sia coz short hair..haha..play wif peiling one round then she give mi the table coz all full then she join her sis friends... i play awhile then went to play billard...haha..second time playing...did not perform well...xianz..then help qian hui to win her cousin...play awhile more then went home wif rebecca by cab...quite fun so long neber meet up le..the next gathering will b aes carnival le...praying tis day soon..
mon coming soon...haf to work n study liao...so shag... :cry:
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| teamwork day... |
| 07.02.04 (5:43 am) [edit] |
well,today wake up veri early coz the IE thing start at 8..so early..hai...then went to meet mei xing..wow she veri early sia...coz she meet her friends at 7.30 so early while i meet at my friends at 7.45 at bus stop...then when we change the bus at the timah plaza..we saw nurul...it has been some time since i c her le..i reach at the np bus stop at 7.30..so early then haf to wait so long....hai...while waiting saw cheryl,liyu n bin ru...then kinda of aes gathering...haha.... we were discussing abt tml birthday celebation of nic n yuan jin...but i can onli join them later coz i got something on...after my friends came we went off together n 4 mi n my classmates we headed to the sports complex...n s 4 liyu n cheryl they headed to the lt26...xianz....
hmm... after reaching the sports hall,we mark our attendance then sit down s a class...after awhile,we start our briefing thing n start the whole thing...i saw my cousin coz she was involve...haha....but too bad she not in charge in my grp...xianz...we play our 1st game tat is to throw the ring into the stand n score s mani points s possible...in the 1st place we did not reali noe how to play...thought tat is u haf to throw urself...hai...they did not explain clear n out trainer also no use de...juz ask us to think..did not tel how we can do wat or cant do wat...hai...dun feel she is needed in the 1st place...then second round we make use of the teamwork...we reali haf the idea 1st but ppl copy n in the end they win the creative..wtf....not fair at all...hai....then the lst round they say muz change ppl...wat does they mean by tat??? every1 haf to try or wat???not clear again..then our class ppl thought every1 need to play at least once...hai...they reali did not give CLEAR instructions sia...hai...
after the game,our class gers went to canteen 2 to eat the famous chicken chop...not bad...quite nice...better then the chicken rice..haha...saw terry the grp..then after tat saw ek n wen tao they all..xianz...seem like everyday haf to c someone...we were discussing on whether to go 4 the ICT race ant...then after much discussion we decided to go coz of the attendance...we reach there..then when the in charge is speaking,we feel tat it is boring..so we decided to run...but cant run coz got alot of mentors...we came out wif alot of stupid ideas to run...then our mentor fabian came...then we more xianz..coz how to run when our mentor noe we here...but we take our attendance..but we did not go 4 the game coz our mentor noe tat we dun wan to play...haha...then we headed home...haha...dun reali care coz fabian also noe we dun like the game coz it is boring...xianz..
hmm...after tat i went home n slp coz too tired sia..tml going out..thought of slping at home but...hai...wat can i do...k la..stop here le la...veri tired le... :roll:
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| wat a day??? |
| 07.01.04 (5:17 am) [edit] |
hmm...today slp till 12 plus then wake up coz pon sch...haha...then ask qian hui come my hse 1st b4 go to aes...after tat i finish copy the pics 4 the sentosa so we headed to aes....hmm... i went to the office to get my 'o' level cert..then went to the pe unit to get my cca record slip...haha...saw mr wong n mr ong n mr kumar...mr wong n mr ong saw i change alot...dun haf leh...haha....we chatted abt the past while waiting 4 my cca slip...after tat i went off...then i saw ms lynn koh...one of fav teacher..she say i more tanned now..n look more mature but nice looking tooz...
qian hui n mi went to five star to eat the chicken rice..abit bo liao la..too free le...then eat le went to westmall to slack...actually wan to watch spiderman but the show time is too late so neber watch in the end...we went to buy bubble tea then walk to the 188 bus stop....slack all the way...after tat i went home...slack again..went market wif my dad to buy stuffs...
xianz tml haf to go sch at 8...so early...xianz..hope tml will b a nice day 4 mi...byez...
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| sad story... |
| 07.01.04 (3:02 am) [edit] |
"Look out!"
Joan turned but it was too late. The water bomb had splashed right into her face. She winced. That was cold, she thought. She reached out to wipe the water from her face. She and her friends were at Cindy's birthday party. The games had been fun, but tiring as well. She was glad when it was time to head for the refresments.
"Hey Joan!" Cindy called out.
Joan turned and saw Cindy dragging a 16 year old teenager behind her.
"Let me introduce my brother to you.He's Jason." she said.
Joan turned to look at the stranger for the first time. She gasped. Wasn't this the guy who had teased her everyday when he met her? She was stunned. "You..," was all she could manage to say.
But Jason grinned at her," So this is your friend. I think we met before, haven't we, Joan?"
Joan just stared at Cindy and her brother, nodding her head slowly.
"Oh, if that's the case, i shall leave you two to talk among yourselves," Cindy replied, walking away to entertain the rest of the guests.
"So..hi.," Jason said and smiled, showing his perfect set of white teeth.
"Oh, hello," Joan replied.She took her time to look at Jason. He had a set of deep blue coloured eyes, which reminded her of the ocean. He was tall and had blonde hair. Everything about him matched completely. He seemed..perfect. Too perfect. She would have believed in love at first sight if she didn't have a boyfriend. Too bad she did. And she wasn't going to show Jason that she was interested in him in any way.
"Got to go," Joan turned and left the party.
*****
The sunlight shone into her room. Joan woke up. School was starting again, and the summer holidays were over. No more daydreaming, she thought. Walking into the hall, she picked up the phone and dialed her boyfriend, Andy's number.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Andy?" Joan said.
"Um..Joan? What's up?"
"Can you pick me up in fifteen minutes time?"
"Huh?"
"I thought u said that you wanted to go to school with me today..?"
"Oh. Yeah. I sort of um, forgot. Something cropped up. Sorry honey."
Without another word, Andy hung up.
Well, that was weird, Joan thought. But she ignored that feeling as she believed Andy when he said that something had cropped up. She went to bathe, then she went to school by herself.
On reaching the school gate, she spotted a car that seemed familar to her. The car went into the school and parked itself in an empty spot. Andy got out of the car. Joan smiled and was about to call him when he went over to the passenger's seat and opened the door. A girl dressed in a sweater and a mini skirt stepped out. Joan gasped as the scene continued in front of her. Andy took the girl by her hand and they kissed each other. Joan could not believe what was going on. Is this a dream, or is this for real? She thought as she pinched herself. Ouch, that hurt, she thought. Knowing that she would have to confront Andy sooner or later, she walked up to the couple. Andy saw her and was shocked.
"I demand an explaination." Joan looked at him sternly.
"I--"
"So now you have seen it, and you should know what it means. He wants to break up with you. Get it?" The girl beside Andy interruped.
Joan was speechless. But knowing that she could not do anything about it, she just glared at Andy and ran away.
She ran, not knowing where she was heading to. She just kept running in the hallway. People stared at her. She knew why. Tears were streaming down her crimson cheeks. Her eyes were red and she looked unsightly. She saw a girls' toilet and went inside. Luckily for her, it was empty and she would not have to face any more stares for now. She washed her face and looked into the mirror.
"Joan, you're such a fool. You could have known that Andy is such a freak and he was cheating on you all the time. How could you have fallen into this dumb trap without knowing it?" She said to her reflection.
But the reflection just stared back at her. It gave no reply, and no expressions to show that it was angry. The tears came back.
*****
Joan stepped out of the toilet, feeling refreshed. She turned a corner and nearly banged into Jason.
"Whoa! Watch where you're going, will ya--" Jason stopped in mid sentence when he noticed that it was Joan. "Oh, hey, what's up?" Jason looked at Joan's gloomy face.
"Something happened?" He asked.
But Joan just turned and walked to her class.
*****
It was the last period.Jason couldn't concentrate in class. What was wrong with Joan? Why did she have to avoid him everytime? Maybe she already knew that he had fallen for her. But it was impossible. So far, Jason had not given out any hints to show that. Well, who knows? He thought. Humans are weird. He took out his notebook.
"Dear diary,
I am feeling troubled. I met her again today at the hallway. She looks kind of..sad. I wished I could help her in any way. But she seems to be avoiding me every time. I wished that i could hug her and tell her that everything is gonna be okay. But i can't do that. She doesn't feel the same way towards me like what i feel towards her. It's one-sided love. I want to be with her. Will that dream ever come true one day?"
He closed the notebook. School was over. He picked up his bag and drove home.
*****
Jason rushed to his room and turned on his computer. Everyday after school, he would never fail to see his pen-pal, "Candy Dreams" online. He had never met her before, but she had been a good friend to him all these while.
[Dotty] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Hi! I've been waiting for you to come online.
[Dotty] says: Haha..first time hearing you say that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway..i and my boyfriend broke up..
[Dotty] says: Huh? What happened? Are you feeling okay?
[Candy Dreams] says: I wished i hadn't been so childish to have liked him in the first place..
[Dotty] says: Don't be silly. You didn't know this would happen anyway.
[Candy Dreams] says: But i feel so stupid..I can't seem to forget him.
[Dotty] says: You just have to remember..time heals all wounds..
[Candy Dreams] says: Thanks..i really appreciate that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway, enough about me. So what's going on between you and your dream girl?
[Dotty] says: Well..i met her again today.
[Candy Dreams] says: And?
[Dotty] says: Same old thing. She avoided me. But i couldn't help noticing how sad she looked.
[Candy Dreams] says: Maybe she doesn't know how you feel about her..i think you should tell her.
[Dotty] says: No, I dun plan to tell her. I rather things remain this way..
[Dotty] says: I feel that..Just as long as she is happy, I will feel the same way.To me, love is about happiness.I just want to be a friend to her..
[Candy Dreams] says: Whoa, I'd feel lucky if i were her..She has no idea how great you are..
[Candy Dreams] says: I wished my boyfriend was like that..
[Dotty] says: True love will come to you one day too. Dun worry..
[Candy Dreams] says: Hope so. Anyway, gtg. Cya!
[Dotty] says: Cya!
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
*****
Joan felt better. Maybe time really would heal all wounds. She reached into her drawer and took out her diary.
"Dear Diary,
I feel alot better after talking to my friend. Sometimes i feel that he's like a soul mate to me. Well anyway, maybe things will get alot better. It isn't time for me to brood about this stuff anymore. I have to forget about Andy. Actually, you know what? I have a little feeling for Jason too. But i'm not gonna go into another relationship so soon..And i can't gurantee than Jason feels the same way. Who knows what will happen in the future?"
*****
Jason stepped into the school, feeling fresh after a morning bath. He walked up to his classroom, meeting Joan on the way. To his suprise, she smiled at him, showing a perfect pair of dimples. Jason grinned and fluffed her hair as they walked past each other. He continued on his way, smiling to himself all the time. He felt warm. She had actually smiled at him! It was such a great feeling to know that he had actually existed in Joan's life.
During break time, Jason saw Joan and decided to strike up a conversation to see whether she would respond.
"Um..so..hi," Jason stammered.
"Hey!" Joan greeted cheerfully, laughing as she did so.
Jason felt suprised and warm at her friendly greeting. She looks so cute when she laughs, he thought.
"Care to eat with me?" Jason asked hopefully
"Sure!" was Joan's joyful response.
*****
After eating his dinner, Jason went to his room and took out his notebook.
"Dear Diary,
I had a great lunch today. Perhaps that was because of her presence. She smiled at me for the first time today.. I felt warm. It makes me more unwilling to confess my true feelings to her as i am afraid that she would avoid me. I rather she treat me this way, just like a close friend whom she can share her thoughts to. I don't want to do something that I will regret later. Maybe it would be best if the situation remains like this.."
Jason closed his notebook silently. The day after would be international friendship day. He decided to buy a present for Joan.
*****
"Hi!" Joan called out.
Jason turned around.
"Hey girl," He grinned.
Joan smiled. He had no idea how his heart-stopping grin seem to be of a comfort to her.
"So, what's going on?" Joan asked.
"Haha, same old thing. I can't figure out a thing the algebra teacher is talking about."
"Did u always have a problem with algebra? You could have told me earlier!"
"Don't tell me i'm talking to an algebra expert?" Jason asked.
"Haha.. Well, i wouldn't call myself that. But i get As for my algebra. It's my favourite subject."
"Hey! That's cool! Would you be willing to teach me?"
"Sure! In fact, I'm free after school today. You?"
"Me too. Meet you in the library after school?"
"Okay. See ya later then," Joan replied.
They then parted, walking different directions towards their classrooms.Suddenly, Jason turned around.
"Hey," He called out.
"Yeah?" Joan turned.
"Thanks..for being such a friend. I really appreciate that,"
"Hey, you're a great friend yourself too," Joan smiled.
They continued on their own way. Maybe there is hope for both of us..? No, I shouldn't be thinking like this. But..i actually have the feeling that i miss him.. Joan thought. Clutching her books tightly towards her chest, she walked into the classroom, put her things down and took out her diary.
"Dear Diary,
What is going on? What is wrong with me..? Why is it that I long to be with him but yet i am trying my best not to like him..? Is this love? I wished he was here right now, beside me. I want to be with him so badly, but he seems to treat me only as a close friend. That's all. A close friend. I want to be someone more than a close friend to him. But maybe that is not so possible afterall.."
*****
"Dear Diary,
Is that all i reallie mean to her? A 'great friend' ? I want to be more than a great friend to her. But it seems that she only treats me as a friend. I don't know how to tell her how much i want to be with her. Maybe waiting would be my only option.. Is this love?"
Jason rested his head on his hands and re-read the entry he had just written into his notebook. He sighed. Maybe love isn't so great afterall..
*****
Joan waved at Jason to signal him to come over to the table she was sitting at. Jason jogged over and pulled out a chair to make himself comfortable.
"Had a great lunch?" Joan asked.
"Yeah.."
"Okay.. I guess we can start on our work then," Joan said.
Throughout the whole afternoon, Joan spent her time explaining to Jason and teaching him all the problems which he didn't know how to solve. She was disappointed when it was time to go home. But she refused to show her true feelings to Jason and put on a brave front instead.
"So..if you have any other questions..feel free to find me," She smiled.
"Thanks," Jason answered.
They left the library, each going their own seperate way.
*****
Joan rushed to her room, dumped her bag aside, and turned on her computer. Dotty was online! She couldn't wait to tell him what had happened recently.
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey!!
[Dotty] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Sorry I'm late..
[Dotty] says: Haha, no problem, I just signed in not long ago too.
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..
[Dotty] says: So what's up?
[Candy Dreams] says: I seem to have fallen for someone else...
[Dotty] says: That's great. Maybe that person would treat your better than how your ex did..
[Candy Dreams] says: I don't even know whether he feels the same way..
[Dotty] says: Hey, remember the advice you gave me? Why don't you tell the guy?
[Candy Dreams] says: Me? No way. I wouldn't want to break a friendship.
[Dotty] says: But did you give him any hints?
[Candy Dreams] says: Nah.. I think he only treats me as a close friend..
[Dotty] says: Don't be so sad..
[Candy Dreams] says: I'm alright. Thanks.. I gtg anyway. I'm tired. Off to sleep!=)
[Dotty] says: Haha..maybe you should be called Candy Pig huh?
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey! Too tired to argue with you anymore. Good night!
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
Joan smiled to herself. Sometimes, Dotty had such humour that she was unable to resist. He would always make her smile even after a tired day. Time to sleep, she thought.
*****
Jason clutched the present tightly in his hand. It was International friendship day and he had gotten a present for Joan. He made his way to her classroom.
"Joan?"
She turned. Jason was standing at the doorway of her classroom.
"Hey. Nice to see ya," she responded.
"So um..here's a present for you. Friends forever.."
Joan was suprised. She had gotten a present for Jason too.
"Wait here," she told him.
Awhile later, Joan returned, holding a box tied with a silver ribbon.
"Here," she said.
They exchanged their presents with each other.
"Thanks for being such a good friend to me. Friends forever..," Joan smiled at Jason.
Once again, Jason was struck by her smile. He jus stared at her with a kind of sadness in his eyes. This girl can never be mine, he thought. He grinned at Joan and waved goodbye to her before going back to his classroom.
*****
Joan returned to her seat. She stared at the lavender box in her hand. What could be in it? she thought. opening the box, she saw a silver bracelet lying among the soft cotton. She picked it up. It's beautiful, she thought. She gazed at it for awhile before putting it back into the box. Taking out her diary, she wrote:
"Dear Diary,
He gave me a bracelet. And it's..reallie beautiful..I hope he likes the present i gave him too.. But i don't understand. Does he just treat me as a friend? I want to be more than a friend to him. But it's so hard to tell him. I just seem to lose my words when looking at him. He's my angel. My love. But he'll never get to know that..I'll never find the courage to tell him.."
The teacher came in. Joan closed her book quickly and put in in her bag. Who is this cute guy beside the teacher? She thought. Awhile later, the guy was introduced as Dave. He had just transferred from another school and Joan was assigned to help him around the school. Thus, Dave was to sit beside her. The other girls stared at Joan with envy. But Joan..her thoughts were all filled of Jason..
*****
"Dear Diary,
She gave me a wallet. That was sweet of her. I love the present she gave me..i hope she likes the one i gave her too..I don't understand. Does she treat me only as a friend? She means much more to me than that. But she doesn't know. And she never will..cos i won't have the courage to tell her.."
*****
Just as Joan was walking down the hallway, a voice stopped her.
"Um..hi."
She turned her head. Wasn't that Dave?
"Hey. You got problems with your work?"
"Er..actually yea.sort of.Are u able to go thru some notes with me tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow..yea i think i'll be free."
"Okay..we'll study at my house? My parents will be home, so don't worry."
"Haha.I'm not gonna worry with an honest guy like you. Cya tomorrow then!"
Joan walked off.
Dave stared at her. She's wonderful, he thought. And i'm in love with her.
*****
Joan threw her bag onto the bed and turned on the computer immediately.
A new contact had added her.
"Who's this guy..?" She said to herself.
dave_jones@hotmail.com
Sounds familar, she thought.
[Dave] says: Hey..are u Joan?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yea..u are Dave?
[Dave] says: Haha. The one and only.
[Candy Dreams] says: Okae. So how did u get my add?
[Dave] says: Well. thru a senior..
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, well okae. these things happen all the time anyway.
[Dave] says: So are u still on for tomorrow?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yea sure. I'm supposed to help u anyway.
[Dave] says: Ok. Hey look, i gtg. Cya tomorrow then.
[Candy Dreams] says: Yep..cya.good nite.
[Dave has logged off]
[Dotty has logged on]
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahh~
[Dotty] says: Heyyz.
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha. I had a great day and i'm soo happie!!
[Dotty] says: Hmm..looks like something happened huh.
[Candy Dreams] says: He gave me a present!!
[Dotty] says: Sounds familar..haha..anyway, what is it?
[Candy Dreams] says: Secret..
[Dotty] says: Oh well.Haha.Hmm..Candy?
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?
[Dotty] says: Do you want to meet up?
[Candy Dreams] says: Um..well..i'm nort sure..u want?
[Dotty] says: I'm not sure too..but i reallie want to meet up with u.
[Candy Dreams] says: Me too. Well in that case..how about next wednesday?
[Dotty] says: No problem. Meet at?
[Candy Dreams] says: Hmm..you know that place Dolphino?8pm?
[Dotty] says: Yeah sure. I gtg. See you soon..
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha.I'm looking forward to meeting u too. See ya..
[Dotty has logged off]
*****
Joan stood at the steps of Dave's house, clutching her books. She pressed the bell. Dave opened the door.
"Hey," Joan said.
"Well, come in."
Dave led Joan to the living room, where his parents were at.
"Hi auntie and uncle," Joan greeted them politely.
They smiled at her and nodded.
"So where are we supposed to study?" Joan asked Dave.
"At the dining room. Come on."
They walked to the dining room and sat down. Then, Joan taught Dave all the subjects which he had problems in. The time passed quickly and it was time for Joan to leave.
"Bye. See you in school tomorrow," Joan said and left his house.
Dave, you're so stupid, you could have asked her to stay awhile more, he thought. Oh well.
*****
[Candy Dreams has logged on]
[Dave] says: Hi!
[Candy Dreams] says: Hey.
[Dave] says: Um..i got something to tell you.
[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, what is it?
[Dave] says: Well um..
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?
[Dave] says: I..i like you.
[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?
[Dave] says: I know you probably don't feel the same way..But i reallie like u alot and i'm gonna try to win your heart..i hope you won't stop me..cya.
[Candy Dreams] says: Well..
[Dave has logged off]
What's going on? Joan thought. Is he kidding or what? I just knew him a few days ago and he likes me? Is that a joke? Well. Guys.
*****
Jason went to his room to do his homework. When he sat down at his chair, he suddenly remembered that he left his pen with his sister. He went to her room to take it.
Seeing that his pen was on her table, he decided that he didn't need her permission to take something that was his. He was just about to leave when a piece of paper on the desk caught his attention. He picked it up.
candy_dreams@hotmail.com
Isn't that..
No it couldn't be.
But..how did my sis know candy dreams? He thought.
Wanting to solve this unanswered question, he took the piece of paper and went to the living room to ask his sister.
"Cindy!" Jason called.
"What's up bro," Cindy replied.
"Who is this person? How did u get her email add?"
"Don't be silly. Isn't that Joan? You know her. She was at my birthday party, remember?" Cindy casually replied.
"Huh? That Joan? Oh..thanks." Jason returned the paper to his sister.
He went back to his room and turned on his computer.
No wonder everything that happened to her seemed so familiar to me..but..should i let her know who I am? I don't want to. I want to take hold of this chance to get to know her better..But..we're supposed to meet next week..what should i do..? Jason was lost in his thoughts.
[Candy Dreams has logged on]
[Dotty] says: Hey..
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahhz
[Dotty] says: Um..i don't think i'll be able to meet u next week..I'm going out..
[Candy Dreams] says: Oh..in that case..it's alright..
[Dotty] says: I'm sorry..
[Candy Dreams] says: It's reallie okay. We can always find some other time to meet up rite?
[Dotty] says: Um well..i'll be kind of busy for the next few months..
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay then..we'll talk about it again when you're free..
[Dotty] says: Okay..
[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah..
[Dotty] says: Why aren't u talking..?
[Candy Dreams] says: I'm just kind of disappointed..but it's okay reallie.
[Dotty] says: Oh..
[Dotty] says: Well, never mind. I think i will be able to meet u afterall.
[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?
[Dotty] says: Um..i jus remembered that it's thursday i'm going out on. Shesh.i can get pretty forgetful sometimes u know..
[Candy Dreams] says: Really?That's great!=).Hey, i gotta go. Cya! Night.
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
"Dear Diary,
I feel like such a liar.But i still had to meet her in the end. I can't bear to see her upset. It reallie hurts. It makes me sad to see her disappointed like just now.. Anyway it's just a meeting with her right? Why am i being such a coward? But..i don't want her to know. I reallie want to get to know her well.."
*****
Dave entered the classroom with a box of chocolates in his hands. He smiled at Joan and passed her the box.
"Huh? Is that for me?" Joan asked.
"Yep.Hope u'll accept it."
"But..i can't.."
"Please..just give me a chance to prove that i can love u like anyone else does..," Dave said sincerely, looking at Joan.
"Oh well..Okay.."
Joan felt touched. Was this how it felt like to be loved by someone else? She smiled gratefully at him.
"Dear Diary,
It's been a few days since i last saw Jason. I wonder what he's doing right now..? Dave is being pretty sweet to me. He's a nice guy. Well, i'm not considering anything though. Am i? Nah..don't think so. I'm meeting Dotty tomorrow. I'm so excited. I've known him for a year and tomorrow will be the first time i'm meeting him. Hope everything goes well.."
"Joan?"
Joan quickly shut her book.
"Yea?" She said to Dave.
"Are you free tonight? Do you want to go watch a movie?"
"Um well..alright." Joan decided that there couldn't be much harm done in watching a movie with Dave.
"I'll pick u up at 7pm then?"
"Yep."
*****
A car arrived outside Joan's house at 7pm sharp. The doorbell rang and Joan ran to open the door. "Hey, you're punctual!" She commented. Dave led Joan to the car. They soon reached the cinema. But everything passed quickly and they had watched finish the touching romance movie. Dave sent her home.
"Dear Diary,
Is it possible that I like Dave? He makes me feel wanted. Makes me feel loved. I don't feel like waiting for Jason anymore when there's someone like Dave who is willing to spent his time loving me. But.I don't know.How am i supposed to feel now? I'm confused ever since Dave came into my life.. Sometimes i feel that i like him. But sometimes i miss Jason.Alot.I don't know.."
Joan sighed.It's so hard to tell my own feelings, she thought.
[Dave has logged on]
[Dave] says: Hi
[Candy Dreams] says: Hiya
[Dave] says: Um.
[Candy Dreams] says: ?
[Dave] says: Can you be my girlfriend?
[Candy Dreams] says: Um..
[Dave] says: I know u need time to decide.I'll give u time.But please give me a chance..
[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..how bout trying out? I know it's not reallie the same but i'm sort of confused right now..maybe trying out will help solve this.
[Dave] says: If that's what u want..alright..but i'm happy as long as you're willing to do that.
[Candy Dreams] says: Kae.i gtg.. Cya tml.
[Candy Dreams has logged off]
What have i done? She thought. Do i reallie like him? Oh well. I've already done it. Nothing can change. Anyway i sort of like him..right? Yea.
*****
The day passed quickly. Finally it was an hour before meeting Dotty. Joan was feeling pretty excited. She decided to go early just to be on the safe side. She had told Dotty her handphone number and told him to call her when he reached. Soon, Joan reached Dolphino.
*****
Jason was driving to Dolphino.He had tried to dial Joan's number to tell him that he might be late but she seemed to have turned off her handphone. He fixed his attention on his handphone instead of the road and dialled her number again. Then, he heard a scream. He looked up from his handphone to see a child standing in the middle of the road. He swerved to avoid hitting him and hit onto a tree. Everything blackened out. He couldn't feel anything..
*****
Joan had been waiting for half an hour now. She was getting impatient but still, she had to wait for Dotty's call. She took out her handphone to see if there were any missed calls. Huh? She thought. She had turned off her handphone without realising it. No wonder there were no calls for her. It's all my fault, she thought. I hope Dotty calls again.
*****
Jason awoke to find himself in a hospital bed. A sharp pain in his leg caused him to wince.
"Quick, find someone with the same blood type as this guy!!" a voice said.
"Wait!" Jason heard himself saying.
The doctor and the nurses stopped in their tracks to look at Jason.
"I know I'm dying soon..don't stop me..I just need a pen and paper..please.." Both items were passed to him a minute later. Using all the strength he had left, he wrote a letter to Joan. After he had finished writing, he gave Joan's number to the nurse and told her to call Joan to the hospital to collect the letter.
Jason felt tired. He decided to go to sleep. Maybe that would stop all the pain. Without realising it, he felt himself drifting apart from the world..
*****
An hour later, Joan was still standing outside Dolphino. Suddenly, her phone rang.
"Hello?" Joan said.
"Is this Joan? I am calling from the hospital. A guy who identifies himself as Jason has asked u to come to the hospital to collect a letter." The voice replied.
"I'll be right over."
*****
Joan walked to the reception counter.
"Hi..I'm Joan. There's supposed to be a letter for me..?"
The nurse on duty looked up.
"Oh yah. Here you go." She passed a piece of paper to Joan.
Joan took it and walked down the corridor, reading the letter..:
"Hey..candy pig..
well..are u suprised that i know this nickname that was given to u by Dotty? I do not want to hide it anymore..i am dotty..i just knew that u were candy dreams a few days ago too. that was why i was so afraid of letting u see who i am..
by the time u received this letter..i probably won't be in this world anymore..i'll be somewhere else..far far away..away from all this pain.it hurts too much to continue living. i have loved u the moment i saw u, Joan. But you onli treated me as a good friend..it hurts. Everytime u say "thanks for being such a good friend", it's like a stab to my heart. I want u to treat me more than a friend. but it's so hard to say so..i have never confessed my feelings to you..for fear of being rejected.now that i'm leaving this world..perhaps it won't be so hard to tell u anymore..
anyway...i heard that you and Dave are going steady. Is that true? If it is..congratulations to u.. maybe you would be happier and more fortunate. Dave would surely treat u better than your ex.I'm happy for u. I told myself..as long as u find your happiness..i will give you my blessings..cos i learnt that loving someone is not about holding on..it's about making her happy. I'm glad that i spent my lifetime knowing you. I have never regretted knowing you because you gave me happiness..a kind of happiness that no one else is able to provide me with..i know u don't feel the same way..but it's okay..i just want u to be happy..
I'll be ending my letter than..bye..my leaf..
From: Jason a.k.a Dotty...=).."
A tear dropped on the paper.
*****
Joan rushed to the reception again.
"Which room is Jason in?" She asked.
"Room 169. But be quick. The doctors are going to carry his body away soon."
Joan ran all the way to Room 169, still clutching the letter. She peered into the glass window that seperated both her and Jason. There he was, lying in the bed. He's not here anymore..she thought.
Wait,i don't understand. Why did he call me his leaf in the letter? Joan thought.
Glancing down on the paper, She saw the small words that was written at the corner of the paper.
"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit? Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..?"
She was touched. Two tears rolled down her crimson cheeks.
"Tree didn't ask her to stay.." She whispered.
*****
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