hmm... everything is over..i hope it will b over..my hubby finally say sori le...i 4gif him coz i luv him so deep.. hehe..shy... we haf been together 4 10 mths...tme reali pass by so fast...n his birthday coming soon...still dnno wat to buy coz got too much thing to buy n go le...hehe...but dun wan say out here if not he c le..then no surprise le..hehe...but i believe our luv will b there 4ever..coz we r reali in true love...hehe...

hmm... today went out wif my class gers...8 of us...went to eat at nydc..so full lor...n we enjoy alot coz we were eating n toking n sharing jokes n teasing ppl..hehe...then we went far east...on the way we took alot of pic...ahha...gers ma...of coz will take pics de lor.. then went puremilk n pam bought herself a shirt..veri chaep lor coz they having sale now..then we went heeren n took neo prints..haha...veri nice...then after tat pam left to meet her friends..n then rest of us go mos burger n drink..slack n chat 4 some time..actually wan to wait 4 hubby de but so late le then went home wif wen wen..hehe...the photos i will upload soon de..hehe...all veri nice... ;p

hmm.... so long neber blog coz i m veri busy wif work n lazy to blog also...

i hate empty promises...u noe wat u promise mi n yet u break ur promises....i reali hate it....i dun like ppl to shout n gif mi attitude...u noe mi n yet u did it.. i hate it....since u dun luv mi juz say or u can juz break up but not giving mi all those attitude...i already told u i hate it hate it to core...u break my heart so so deep.............................

hmm...neber blog 4 few days le...too lazy le...today wake up n eat m dinner...slack all days...

nthin is the same anymore,izit i change or i ask too much...no longer can know wat u thinking.....n guess u also cant guess wat i m thinking...distance is drawing us away...getting further n further...i dun understand u... r we meant to b together or i juz focing to b together..i reali dunno...juz veri veri tired of everthing... not longer feel the importance in ur life..sad...heart broken into pieces bit by bit...feel so painful.... :...(

hmmm....yesterday got back from my class chalet...haha...haf fun n laughter...hmm... 1st day check in we will late when amelia,meiying,wen wen n kareem had arrived le...but we reach around 15 min later...after tat went to check in n our room were facing the sea...we gers choose the room n choose the food n drinks keep in our room...haha...bad rite???but whu ask the guys did not help up besides kareem n rafiz..

when settle down wen wen n mi start to clean the room coz it is veri dirty n sandy...keep washing till veri clean n we put 3 cloth on the floor...so when enter our gers room muz go through lots of procedues...1st put shoe on the step on entry n clean ur foot on the 1st cloth,next open the door n clean the foot again then can go in the room if go toilet haf to clean foot when coming out...haha...guys not going to enter unless permitted...

after tat we slack awhile n went to rent the bikes...hmm...lele dunno how to bike ...actuall pam wan to ride her in double bike but dunno y in the end lele choose single bike but after learning she still dun dare to ride..mayb she too scare so dun dare to loosen up herself...on the way we saw police...then janis,wen ,per n mi went to find winson n the rest was teaching lele cycling....but after found winson we went bk to chalet to get ready 4 bbq...n lele they all also came bk n they saw a guy being drown in the park...tat was when we saw the police...n we did not c the tent tat cover the corpse but we still joke tat the police took our money n enjoying themself...luckily neber c if not i will b scared..not reali a gd start of our class chalet le...

then we start our bbq...we bbq 4 gers n onli 4 guys whom did help...4 the rest we dun even bother them..they wan eat coook themself...we gers dun care when they treat us like maid cook 4 them to eat when they enjoying themself when we suffer on the hotness of the bbq n they juz eat..wait long long...after bbq n eat till i full we decided to go buy drinks...i mean barcadi all these mostly of them buy 2 bottle except 4 pam coz mayb her boi boi dun allow ba...hmm...during the chalet we will making fun n her boi boi...both of them will veri shy..haha... n in our rooms we r not allow to make any cal to our bfs if not we will b kana scream n disturb at...but i still cal my hubby coz i cal at the rite time when janis wan to watch tv so cannot make noise...after tat we drink n took quite alot of pics...haha...but my hubby tat lao wu gui say i drank but i m not lor....;p

after the bbq..we slack n bath coz we were veri sticky n after tat we cycle to the bedok jetty after we finish our drinks...on the way,pam stop coz she c things n at tat moment i feel something hot hugging on my back...veri scare but still act s nothing happen n lele feel somethin also...n i also heard someone cal mi but i dunno izit lele coz she say she did cal mi but dunno izzit at the same time...we went to jetty...lele was on the bike wif xueliang coz she dunno how to bike n pam was tired so ah liang haf to sent lele any where she wan to go...but lele butt was pain i guess coz i haf the feeling before also...

hmm....we went to bedok jetty to c sunrise but we could not c coz it was behind the clouds...then we headed bk to chalet n on our way it was raining...we speed but we r more careful coz we scare tat we will fall...hmmm...then most of us r tired n we went to slp..

next morning,meiying,pam n amelia went to buy breakfast n mac n i slp coz quite tired n rest of them dunno do wat..haha...coz i was in my drm land..after tat they came bk n i wake up n eat my breakfast...then we decided to go beach n we wake wen wen up...wen wen bring her breakfast to the beach...haha...after tat we go up the rocks to feel the breeze n we came down to catch crab n also c got any snail all these anot...but we found quite a few hermit crabs..small one de la...wen wen went to find sea shell..i help her find quite a few also....then pam they all went cycling n mi,wenwen n lele stay awhile at beach n go bk to chalet to start bbq again...haha..coz the food left alot n we decided to bbq again...we fork our money to rent the pit n start our bbq...

the gers went to return the bikes n came bk eat onli abit n most of them say full except mi n lele still eating coz we did not eat as we help to bbq...then after tat eat till full mi n lele went bk to room n wen wen,amelia,percila n meiying was ready to go home..waiting 4 wen wen brother to fetch them home...n lele n mi went to bath.... n after tat they went home n we slack n drink...lele was high when she drink...dunno la tat wat others say...haha...hmm..we begin to pack our thing in order to prevent tat the next day we cant wake up on time to pack so pack before slp..then we watch tv n rafiz came to our room n watch till quite late then all went slp n rafiz go bk to the guys room..

time pass so soon,we came to the end of chalet..wake up around 9 n pack my thingsn we went to check out n take cab home....reach home n go bath n went to slp...coz too tired le lor...hehe...

well, here are some photos tat we took at the chalet....

 mi cleaning the room when janis took th pic...haha..c my butt...so shy...

 we gers having our cheers... ;p

 we gers having the drinks..enjoying ourself...

 lele,pam janis n my hands making the star wif the bottle in the middle...

 our class gers taking pic lying on meiying..haha...

 lele in high mood wif her barcadi lime on her hands... ;p

 gers taking the pic when mi n wen wen were cleaning the room so ke lian 4 us..

 wenwen pick up a special shell found on beach

 janis's n my legs... ;)

  the hermit crabs in the shell hiding to prevent us from bbq them...

hmm...today os paper...2nd last paper..juz hope 4 a pass...last part of the paper i actually wan to change but dunno y i feel is wrong but instead it i correct...careless...bang wall ba...hai...juz wanne a pass will do...after paper went to atrium to buy strawberry shake n brownie...veri nice...wan eat again..haha...going fatter le la...

then headed to amaths lesson from 4 to 6...going crazy..keep doing amaths...hmm....i juz wan a pass 4 all my papers...not greedy at all rite??? reAli hope...pray hardly...hmm...wen wen went off 1st coz she tired then mi,lele,per,janis stay till 6...cannot take it then go home...went library to print per thing from janis n went hom...

reach home fall asleep n wake up around 9 went to bath n went online to d/l solutions n went to my ah ma hse print all out...xianz...msn messenger cant sign in dunno wat the hell happen..so xianz..going slp n wake up later to do amths....xianz...

hmmm...today bis paper...much easy then last common test...at least i noe wat the paper is asking...but hope i can pass...i muz pass n hope will pass...after paper went to canteen 1 n accompany le le eat then went to bus stop n wait 4 hubby tat lao wu gui...then we headed to bugis to meet hubby's friends to exchange his card then walk around n go to orchard...went walking around...

actually wan buy shoe de but...hai...then walk around n c c look look...then went far east n buy pooh sweet n buy 1 elephant 4 ah hui...coz veri cute to mi so buy lor...then go taka n visit lao da irene...hubby buy bubble tea 4 irene n zac..after tat buy ice cream n eat...hahah...then we chatted awhile then go heeren n walk coz hubby tat lao wu gui wan buy shoe...in the end is HE buy HIS shoe instead of buy MY shoe lor...he veri gd to mi hor....after tat we take bus to ps there then walk to parkmall n take bus home...coz at least got seat to sit ma...i veri lazy de...hehe...hmm...still got 2 more paper to conquer....i mu do it n i will do it...haha... going mad le...

kk...hubby lao wu gui,dear luv u deep deep....c i shy le...:oops:  hmmm...dunno hubby tat lao wu gui got wat to say to mi anot???if haf tag in the tagbox hor...if not u reali not gd to mi le...onli noe how to c c nia....

hmmm...yesterday went to sch 4 evp exam then go westmall there to booked the chalet n craps..the machine sort sort one...at last trying so mani time managed to complete n get the receipt...then went to jp to accompany le le change her puremilk jacket...but think she did not like the desgin even though she change color coz cant change to other desgin lor so no choice...

we walk till nothing to walk then went  out n i bought pooh hp pouch...veri cute all blue de...haha..then went bk n saw meiying then slacks she dunno where to buy her friend present n in the end we go watch the eye10....before tat we saw fiona n alots of other tv stars...but we onli went to take photo we fiona coz she veri sweet n nice...but too bad my pic was taken when my eyes blink...so wasted...haha the show is funny instead of funny...cant go n watch to destress...after tat went home n slp so neber blog yesterday...so today haf to blog....

hmmm...wake up in the morning today n went to sch 4 amaths then go westmall meet hubby tat wu gui...hmmm...went to book the tixs n go food court eat...when going out to watch movie then saw shunxing n manping eating...actually  saw them long ago juz dun wan go over n disturb then before walk out of food court then say hi lor...

i noe u will c my blog de...;p whu ask u lie to mi....wu gui...hubby shi ge lao wu gui...then went to watch ms con2 coz haf the urge..not reali veri nice...but still not bad la...then walk around n go supermarket n buy things 4 mi to eat at home then hubby tat wu gui help mi carry..haha...my maid lor....veri nice to b my maid hor hubby...ur pleasure rite???haha....then went home after tat....think haf to blog tml le...now going to start study 4 tml bis if not i going to flung le..shit no no i not going to fail...muz at least pass...tat my hope lor...

hubby lao wu gui u listen here....u stupid lie to mi say neber c my blog...u wu gui...i dun like u lie understand....u better treat mi gd if not u noe...i wan go study le...byebye... ;p

hmm... i m sick...sick again...wat is happening to mi... y m i so weak...y everytime sick...today wake up around 1 plus then eat my lunch..but onli eat abit coz dun feel like eating juz feeling i veri full..reali full n sick... throat pain n having fever...veri xin ku cannot take it...after awhile i eat med then go slp till 7...i intend to study coz tml exam but i cannot take it so went to slp...how m i going to pass my exam..tml exam yet i haven touch...i reali dunno wat m i doing...being to hate myself...

wake up then haf my dinner n doing my evp revision...onli abit then cannot stand it...slack again...dunno where my mind also...watch tv till now...i reali dun wish to fail i wan to do well but sickness reali cause mi no mood to study at all..juz feeling veri veri weak...

i wan to eat ice cream,alot of fruits...peach milk tea from taka...chicken wings from cystal jade..hai...when i eat....asap can???

think going to study le...blog again...

mi wif Aaron

 Aaron veri cute rite???

hmmm....juz reach home from jolin'baby birthday party...the baby veri veri cute.. will update tml when i upload it...veri handome kid...

on the way home,my mind gone through alot of thing...suddenly i feel so tired of everything...mani things went through mi like....m i important? m i asking too much from u? r u tired of high expection on u? m i veri difficult to pleased? m i veri unreasonable to be together wif? did i throwing temper everytime? m i asking alot? m i not suitable to u? m i a person tat gif troubles n cause so much unhappiness instead of being hapi?? this reali go through my mine alot of time..... i noe i m asking to much far too much from u....i need to b indepedent rite??? tat wat i was always be told but do u reali understand mi???? i m not tat type...i need ppl to pamper,luv n care...mayb i ask too much far too much le...i noe u already try ur best to pleased mi le...juz tat i m asking too much...thanx 4 able to bear wif mi nonsense..appreciated....

i m a ger whu has a dream tat i need someone whu sent mi home everyday,cal mi everytime to chat...spent time wif mi....i noe is drm la...coz i m asking too much... i not a princess cant haf so mani drms...all this wont come true....i m drming....drming....

well,tired le...reali wan to go out n haf a walk..sometime reali dun wish to study...dun wan to go home...juz wan to b alone...can i??? trying to b one.....everything seem so heavy for mi...reali tired...when can i rest n enjoy..asking too much....

anyway update tml ba....nthing to say le,i m tired.... :..(

hmmm....wat haf i been doing last few days???hehe..can say alot ba..got study n go out n haf fun n slack also...well,yesterday went to hubby's hse then he study 4 his eg2 then after i went home bath n meet him at my cc here..he watch bball at cc while waiting 4 mi to bath..then haf the urge to challenge them..better study 1st then think of bball...after meeting him went to lot 1 n eat...go arcade n play games..got babies n animals de..so cute n funny..reali haf great lauff..then went slacking around while waiting 4 hubby's friends..went to mac n sit down drink my milo then hubby's friends came lor...

we went to foodcourt n his friends go eat...then his friends all funni kind...can get along  well ba???after tat went to east coast park by his friend des car...hmm...c onli abit of stars but gd enough coz can c wif hubby coz tat time chalet rain cant even c anything lor..then hubby's friends lin sing n benson keep disturbing us...hai..benson keep calling my chinese name...all bcoz of collin la..told them my chinese name.. so sad...then we walk back n saw a rabbit...it was knocked down by car...accually des wan bring home but the rabbit was vomiting blood...veri ke lian lor...it was reali cute...every1 was sad coz reali it was cute...reali wan to curse the driver whu hit it...cant bring it to vet meh...hit n run away..stupid idiot...dun drive la if not kill more animals...reali hate the driver to core...

then des sent his gf home n then follow by mi coz the rest r guys.....quite fun the day except a few sad things...hmm..going to study cant slack anymore if not mon dunno how can i go take my exam...

hehe...going watch my vcds...jue shi shuang jiao...bye.. ;p

hmm.... well, so so long haven update my blog le...u guys haf been waiting veri long rite???haha...chialer keep asking mi update n the elephant...well,now since i so bored n free then update lor...

u guys might b wondering y so long i neber update ba...not i dun wan update la...juz plain lazy,busy,tired of mi onli...hehe...now exams coming real real soon yet i haven touch.dunno wat i thinking also.. juz haven get the right mood to study yet i should go bang the wall.. hai... suddenly begin to tired of everythin..dunno y also..mayb slack ba.. i reali wan to haf fun..reali haf fun shopping,watch movie,watch stars n sunrise... slack all the way...but dunno when i can reali do it..study study study...everyday there some1 whu ask mi to go study..is not i dun wan i juz dun haf the mood.. i also wan to get gd grades not i dun wan to study....i need to get my mood b4 i can study if not i will go crazy one day...now neber work le..feel so relax but sometime i reali feel like going back to work to make my mind to stop thinking too much..

well,sometimes i reali duno wat my mind thinking also...dunno wat i wan n wat i expect..juz wan ppl around mi to happy but not sad or unhappy because of mi... s long s they hapi can le...whu can understand mi pls tel mi... i reali feel tat i crazy sometime...i reali dunno wat i wan..make so mani ppl unhappy or sad juz of mi...i feel so bad...

hmm.... i feel lonely n sad at times...u guys muz mi thinking y also... but the ans i gif will b i reali dunno...juz haf the feelings...hmm... now i wan is to study n get gd grades.. i haf so much thing in my mind to buy but no money... going to save save... my list things r watch,mp3,wallet,hp,jacke t n lots of clothes...but all it need is money n money n money...dunno can save till when to buy...sad sad....

hmm... i wan to lose weight...lose around 5 to 10kg...i wan to b slim...i feel i m fat...i wan back my last time figure...i i noe i asking too much... i juz wan all these to make myself better..when i get somethin i like i will b happier...mayb ppl will think i m greedy but i m not... i juz feel veri happy when i buy the thing i like.. tats mi..

hmm... think i write alot le ba... this r some of my update pics.. here u go to the photo gallery

pic of mi n le le

 haha...lele n mi again..

 pam,lele,meiying n mi.. :)

 4 of us again...

our grp at kok guan'hse

hmm...2 days neber update le..coz quite busy..working lor...wat else..haha...hmm... today went to dear hse around 11 plus after his eg1 paper to do my laptop thing..but dunno how to reformat then went to meet jas,rey,meixing,felix n eileen..hmm...reach there then went to draw money...saw anita n her mother...used to b my fav customer back in tiong bahru...so hapi to c them coz anita veri cute....then meet meixing n went to burger king to find jas n rey..then we headed to rajahinn...the food menu changed alot..more exp...then we eat alot...tok to my ex workmates...

food come n we start to eat la..hungry ma...then dear scalded his hand..heart pain....then applied lotion 4 him...muz careful next time k...then we eat alot...n at the same time joke like nobody business...hmm....then felix n eileen came join us...we eat so much lor...42 dollars plus...then headed off to play pool..we shop at pepper plus n i bought a skirt,meixing buy a top n jas buy a skirt too...haha...no money le..ke lian..keep spenting...then went to meet dear's friend wif the same ppl except 4 meixing coz she go marina meet hoon teck they all...c them play pool then went to another pool place to play...play quite some times...haha....so long neber play pool...haha cant go in straight ball but can in angle de.tupid rite???so lousy...then after tat went home by bus...dear sent mi home s usually...haha...hmm...k think tat all ba..so tired le...zzz...tml going to work at lot one hope will b an easy job ba...nitez...n peeps pls flood my tagbox...thanx...

hmmm...last paper of the yr le...finally haha...after test went to changi airport...went wif dear,felix,jas n rey...1st time c rey wat i think of him will b shy lor..haha...hmm...  i went there to watch liang zhu then dear n felix do their amaths but after a few qns,dear watch the liang zhu wif mi then felix went off to meet eileen...hahah...left the 2 couples...then after watching the liang zhu then watch the anacondas 2..nice shows..the liang zhu almost make mi cry....hmm... dear should noe lor coz u keep looking at my eyes...then dear accompany mi watch..mayb bcoz he dun wan sit on the floor n study so dun reali haf the mood to study lor...hmm...but dear u muz noe i no more papers le...u still haven start ur 1st paper worz...so muz jia you ok...u ask mi study when i having exam now ur turn to study so i will nag u de..haha..

after all those went home by 67..saw sinyee at bus but dunno reali tok alot coz too tired then i fall asleep at dear's legs...haha..he cant move haf to let mi slp...haha...treat mi like a princess... dear thanxz worz....;p after tat alight at my stop then dear sent mi home lor...s usually..hehe...

*dear dear,dunno y u cant get to c my blog haf to save n let u c...haha..hmm... juz wan to let u noe even we haf less time 4 each other but my heart will b there to accompany through the tests n etc de...touched le ba..so muz treat mi well worz..c i so pai seh now... :oops: .....

hmmm....peeps sori...been so busy wif work or studies then too tired to blog in...hmm...yesterday went to westmall to eat n buy gio stuff...after tat went to bugis wif kenneth n qian hui to buy ken thing...then we went bk to westmall n slack at the coffee bean...then wen to gio again then kenneth went to buy jeans..n after tat we went home..goinghaf study break le...finally....hmm...k having lesson now..blog again...bye peeps...

2/8

today went to watch i-robot wif boi n jas after sch...tired...actually wan to study de but in the end i feel like watching so ask them accompany mi...went to cine to watch after tat we eat at pasta mania...the show was nice..had lo of laughter..so peeps should go watch...haha...after tat we went home..so tired coz long day le..study from 9 -5...

3/8

today IS day...last tts..finally..after tat went to SW..bball training..luckily neber rain if not i not going....hmm..actually meeting  jas n boi to study de...then jas las min got thing...then i study wif  boi lor..hmm..before tat i went to my cca meeting...hmmm..then chialer join mi to mac..she eat le went off 1st..then mi n boi study le then go home...shag...

4/8

today went to work at imm after sch..xianz...dun reali like the i charge...ask mi one ppl do so mani ppl work..then the closing was sux..dunno how to do coz so different from nac....nac still the best...but the alvin quite gd teach mi alot of thing...k think tat all...nthing much to write...

5/8

hmm...today went to centuary wif  qian hui n boi to play pool..coz meeting meixing...on the bus saw liyu..then edric they all in bus..is like omg...hai....then liyu ask boi 4 jia yong..haha..i was so pai seh...hmm...after tat go centuary...edric also go there...xianz haf le...then mi n boi play one table then meixing n hui play another...hmm...then jia jun,my xiao nu er come...then i was shocked.then again say abt the dady thing...shy again...then qian hui n meixing then all keep disturing mi...hai...after tat boi n mi eat le then go work..was late..but we cal bk lor...hmm...then today buy a jacket n a polo thing to top up slaes...broke le..tat all...

6/8

hmm...today had our psp lesson..so xianz...then saw my cousin at net restaurant...hmm...percilia,pei wen,chia ler n i eat n had a chat...then went to westmall...walk awhile then headed home coz veri tired..hmm..xianz tml haf to wake up early..